As we are in this time of uncertainty and change, it has been SO hard not to give into the feelings of anxiety and fear. Everything is different right now and no one has all the answers, which makes it even more frightening.
The normal things that we did on a daily basis have become a source of anxiety and stress. Going to the grocery store requires a face mask, gloves and hand sanitizer. The things that 3 months ago we wouldn’t have given a second thought about have become huge things now.
This is a season of mourning for everyone. Every single person has lost something in this time whether it’s a graduation party, time with friends, or jobs. Some of us have lost family members or friends due to CoVid- 19. Whatever you have lost in this time, I am sorry. I know how difficult this is for all of us. We are in this together. 💓
Through this time, it has been difficult to trust and take one day at a time. If I’m honest, I’ve been really struggling. I’m struggling with anxiety, loneliness, frustration, and really just asking WHY God? And I don’t have all those answers. But I do know these things:
When you have to go without, you truly realize how much you have. So I challenge you in this scary, unknown time to ask God what He wants you to take away from this. Take a minute and think of all the things you’ve been able to do because of this season and thank God for those moments. In the rush to return to normal, what is it that we are really rushing back to?
- Navi Pauley
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand
- lyrics by Alison Krauss
,I just returned from a trip to see my grandparents over Thanksgiving week. The trip was great but coming back has been a little rough. My car was stolen from the airport parking lot. My job is stressful. Holidays are coming. You know the normal craziness that adults go through on a day-to-day basis 😂. Honestly, it's a really good thing God gave me a special moment before I landed or I would’ve already had my mental breakdown.
The flight from Charlotte to Peoria was not fun. It was stormy and turbulent.. I always sit by the window. I don’t why, but it’s where I always end up! As we were landing, I realized something...we were flying above Peoria and I could see all the lights and flashing shiny things, so I had convinced myself I was only 5 minutes away from the airport, even though the pilot had just announced 15 minutes. I just assumed I was right and he was giving us an estimated time. To my surprise, he kept going and going and within 5 minutes we were in the absolute pitch black, like so black you couldn’t see the wing of the airplane. I then convinced myself, oh man the pilot “missed the turn” and is going to have to turn back around toward the lights. He didn’t. A few minutes later they announced that we had landed! I didn’t even know we had landed! I was so convinced that I was right that I was waiting to feel the plane turn in the direction I felt was the right way.
It seems silly, I know, but I then realized I DO THE EXACT SAME THING TO God. When He takes me away from the brightness and shininess and busyness of the world to just be quiet and wait, I get impatient. I just want the "time out" to be done so I get back to the path that I assume is the one I should be traveling. I often miss what’s right in front me because I’m busy looking for what I think should be there, or He takes longer than I think He should. God is a perfect God who knows all things and controls all things. Are you getting frustrated and exhausted from constantly “backseat flying”? Me too! God does, in fact, have His pilot's license and He does not need me to try to fly the plane. - Navi
And I'll praise you in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That you are who you are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm
Praise you in the storm.
“For I know the plans I have for you declared the Lord plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future.” - Jeremiah 29:11
Am I there yet? Am I living the plan that God has for my life? How do I know whether or not I have “ made it” to the plan that God has for my life?
I’m sure I’m not the only one who has asked this question. I wish I could tell you I had an answer to the secret equation that equals success - that formula that lets you know you are living out the life God has for you - but unfortunately, I don’t. I do know that I get tired - tired of the waiting for the next big thing, the next big thing that signifies I’m one step closer to the “plan”.
The closer I get to Christ, the more I realize His plan is entirely different than my own. My plan is made up of moments - graduation, marriage, kids, etc. His plan includes me growing closer to Him, leading others to Him, loving others through Him and serving for Him. His plan is perfect and His love never failing. “It is in Christ we find who we are and what we are living for.” So, I’m going to lean into His plan for my life and work on being patient in the waiting.
⁃ Navi Pauley
What will it look like?
What will it be like?
When my world turns out like You planned.
When will I get there? Feels like I'm nowhere.
My dreams are like dust in my hair.
But I, I know.
That this is the waiting.
I anxiously wait.
'Cause I hold on to love that will never let go.
And in these times that my patience is tested,
Won't You remind me that I'm not home?
Here in the waiting.
The waiting. The waiting.
- Jamie Grace
“Be still and know that I am with you.” - Psalm 46:10
This week has been rough, like really rough. It’s not been any one big thing, but rather 15 million little things. Between work and feeling like I’m not good enough, to the mountains to do at home, to my puppy, Izzy, knocking over my first homemade meal of the week, I am exhausted, frustrated and fed up.
This is not the first or even the five hundredth time I’ve battled this stuff and I’m sure you guys can relate to the the struggle of this crazy thing we call life.
What I’ve been working on is my reaction to certain situations. When I am questioned or criticized or challenged or even just tired, what do I do? To be honest, I usually run. Or get angry. Or pout. Or on the really big ones, I do all of the above. Anything I can possibly do to let God know I am NOT a fan of the situation I’m in.
The reminder that I have to give myself daily is... I AM NOT ALONE.
God is there in my moments of anger, frustration, impatience, or weakness. I don’t have to handle this on my own. Faith is trusting God even when you don’t understand His plan.
So this week I’m going to trust that God has a plan bigger than me. And, I’m going to let God do His job because I’m finding I’m extremely under qualified!
I ask You: "How many times will You pick me up,
When I keep on letting You down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory,
How far will forgiveness abound?"
And You answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the power of My daily sufficient grace."
- from "Grace" by Laura Story
My name is Lynn Pauley. I'm just a normal woman, with normal struggles. Any success I've found comes from following the Scriptures. I'll update this blog as time and inspiration permit.