Dancing in the waiting

Hey friends, 

Congratulations! We survived 2020! That in and of itself is a huge feat! We had a lot to overcome and hopefully, we learned a lot about ourselves. 

As I headed into this New Year, I felt myself getting anxious for all the plans. All the things. My job. My future. My relationships. My anything and everything. I felt like I needed to sketch out EVERY aspect of what I wanted this year to look like in hopes that it would be better then the last. As if I learned nothing from 2020, I figured if I found a way to plan out every aspect of my life, that should do the trick, right? 

So I sat down on a Sunday afternoon and went to work. I started planning everything. And setting my goals and the reactions I would have when I reached them. 

It wasn’t until I was looking at them later that I realized in every aspect my happiness was based on getting what my desired result was. If I lost 20 pounds, I would celebrate with blah; if this worked this way, I would celebrate with blah; and so on and so forth. For a second, I felt pretty accomplished. 

BUT GOD. My reading that day was in Ecclesiastes. Ecclesiastes 3:1 to be exact. To everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. And so of course, here comes my denial hardcore. But God, what about this sadness I’m feeling? What about this relationship that won’t work? What about this change? Surely that isn’t a part of the season, right? Wrong! 

He says EVERYTHING. That means grief and happiness and joy and EVERYTHING in between. There is a time FOR ALL OF IT. So if everything has a time, I shouldn’t just be rejoicing and celebrating in the “when” but just as joyful and grateful for the “now”. The plans that aren’t working. The broken pieces I’m putting back together. ALL OF IT is a part of a season that is integral for my growth. 

So, my New Year's intention is to celebrate the space between where I am and where I’m headed. There is beauty in the journey if we slow down enough to look for it. Here’s to dancing in the waiting!

Love,
Navi 
 
Keep Me in the Moment
by Jeremy Camp 

Singing oh, Lord, keep me in the moment
Help me live with my eyes wide open
'Cause I don't wanna miss what you have for me
Singing oh Lord, show me what matters
Throw away what I'm chasing after
'Cause I don't wanna miss what you have for me
Keep me in the moment
Oh, keep me in the moment
Keep me in the moment

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