He never changes

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. - Psalm 73:26, ESV 

It’s hard to believe two years have passed since I’ve written anything for this blog. So much has changed in these last two years.

My husband resigned as pastor of the church where we had served the Lord for nearly 20 years. The last years were difficult, challenging and painful. My husband is not the type of man who quits anything; so stepping away from the pastorate was a hard decision to make. In fact, he struggled with the decision for over 5 years. Unless you’ve been there, it was tougher than most can imagine. An incredibly huge change!

When a decision like that is made in one area of your life, it always affects other areas. Your friends change. People who had been part of your life for so long are no longer there. A few friends remain, but you lose many. Sometimes, people are hurt by your decisions and so they just stay away. You lose touch with others simply because your paths just don’t cross anymore. This brings hard, emotional changes!

We no longer live in the house where we raised our five older children. With the decision to leave the ministry, our finances changed as well. We decided to rent out our beloved old home and moved into a smaller apartment to reduce our cost of living. Space changes!

In an attempt to provide for our family while we wait to see what God has planned for our future, my husband started a construction company. Another change! Guess who does all the office work? Yes, me! An even different change. 

We also had to find a new place to worship. We were blessed to find a church about 45 minutes away that has sound biblical teaching. It is still hard to integrate into a new church family, though. This was an enormous change for me!!

A very pleasant change happened in September of 2017. Our little Jude had open heart surgery to repair his heart defect. This has brought happy health changes for him. 

So everything changed. Some changes were welcomed and others I didn’t like. In the midst of the changes and chaos, I would often seek out songs to help calm my mind and refresh my spirit. One of the songs was “Trust in You”, sung by Lauren Daigle. 

Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what You see
I try to win this war
I confess, my hands are weary, I need Your rest
Mighty warrior, king of the fight
No matter what I face You're by my side.

Amen!

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